I’m breathtaking to behold
(Or so I am told)
Even by the strange man
(With the gun in his hand)
As he laid me down
On the cold harsh ground
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m a waste of space
I bring down my race
Nothing good could ever come
From the beating of my drum
I’m just another liar
That will burns in Hells fire
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m a cold hearted bitch
A devilish witch
I have no right to speak
My future is bleak
So hit me again
It is your whim
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m too wicked to give
My son a place to live
Take him away
For Safetys play
And I have no right
For which I can fight
Toss another log on the fire.
They wonder why I must
Live life in mistrust
This fire burns bright
All through the night
My one source of Heat
Would make others weak
Toss another log on the fire.
11-6-96

If sometimes you look out of the corner of your eye,
And you see me doing something strange, don’t ask why.
I’m just practicing Escape.
If sometimes I say something just a little out of place,
And I don’t seem to want to look up into your face.
Don’t worry I’m just practicing Escape.
If you see me walking and observing what’s all around,
And it seems I’m searching, but nothing I’ve found.
I’m just practicing Escape.
If I seem tired and I’m lost deep in my thought,
And if I’m recalling of some Foe that I’ve fought.
Don’t worry I’m just practicing Escape.

Escape for me, should come easy, that is what you think,
Escape for me, so plain to see, quicker than you can blink.

If sometimes you look at me and I quickly look away,
And the problems that we have are saved for another day.
I’m just practicing Escape.
If you wonder if I hide my thoughts deep inside,
And for some strange reason take you on a strange ride.
Don’t worry I’m just practicing Escape.
If you think my feelings I’m hiding and wont show,
And you’re making plans to keep me and not let me go.
I’m no longer practicing Escape.

Escape for me, with practice is easy, I’m quicker than you think,
Escape for me, no one will see, vanished before you can blink.
8-27-96

The moon rises and will fall,
Help is not my real call.
I’m not what you really think,
Life goes past in just a wink.
I see the moon high above,
For this do I owe my love,
Like a ball in the sky,
Watching as you walk by.
He holds my dreams and fear,
Keeps everything so very clear.
Bright as a teardrop of pain,
The moon always rises again.
Like your dreams it’s out of reach,
Bright and sinless out with bleach.
Dark and desolate is the night,
Yet the moon still stays bright.
5/19/89

Some would say this uncomfortable silence hurts their ears,
Some would say the pain’s too great after all these years.
Some would say it’s just to difficult to live life all alone,
Some would say I’m lucky, cause I don’t mind the silence drone.
I’m not like you, don’t make me try,
I’m not like you, just wave bye-bye.
Some would say this confusion is driving them completely insane,
Some would say it’s just too much and point fingers of blame.
Some would say Love simply really doesn’t exist here,
Some would say I’m lucky, cause to me it’s all too clear.
I’m not like you, just turn and walk away,
I’m not like you, and I don’t wanna be that way.
Some would say that life, it just goes round and round,
Some would say you search but never an answer is found.
Some would say you can’t see the forest for the trees,
Some would say I’m lucky, cause I bring em to their knees.
I’m not like you, call it what you want,
I’m not like you, no feelings you can taunt.
Some would say it’s about control, others want to win,
Some would say it’s all about pleasures, others call it Sin.
Some would say remorse is the teacher of our way,
Some would say I’m lucky, if I ever live to see that day.
I’m not like you, I will always fight,
I’m not like you, and I know I’m right.
8-28-96

You look at me and see something wrong,
Is it your place to say where I belong?
Who was here first, was it me or you?
I don’t need you telling me what to do.

Don’t tell me shit.

Have you walked a mile in these tennis shoes,
Suicide surround you while you sing the blues.
Do you walk at night alone in despair,
You don’t go where I go, but I can take you there.

Don’t tell me shit.

Are my eyes still to cloudy, swear I can’t see,
Judge all my actions, instead of just me.
What’s behind closed doors, hidden in my eye,
You don’t understand, you don’t want to die.

Don’t tell me shit.

I’m a void of darkness, I run in my sleep,
I’m carrying a secret, I just can’t keep.
The more it comes closer the more I realize,
I’m in over my head, and I can’t reach the sky.

Don’t tell me shit.

So don’t get to close, or you’ll walk on glass,
From the shattered dream that wasn’t meant to last.
Cause there’s no hope for me, it’s already been to long,
Just let me survive, til I can no longer hold on.

Don’t tell me shit.

2-6-97

Here we stand at the first line,
Of the new outrageous rhyme.
Take in a breath and forget time,
(Now is the time to decline)
As I take you on this ride of mine.
Now relax and free your thoughts,
There is no need to be distraught.
Now that your attention I have got,
Please glance upon what I have sought.
There you see the shades of Hue,
Pastels first, Green Yellow Red Blue.
Just one last thing to do…
Past the Darkness we must get you.
Ignore it not, you wont get past,
Do not run, this will not last.
Take in a breath we’re moving fast.
Now you Star in a Cast.
Amazing sights start to take hold,
Starting first with days of Old.
Knights in armor being bold,
Pirates searching for their gold.
Don’t stand to close, this is a tour,
Now we make a short detour.
And if much longer you can endure,
However stop now, if you aren’t sure.
Now we stand at the Abyss,
You wonder how it came to this,
Of all the things you could have missed,
You would have never wished.
I know this is your darkest fear,
You must Defeat it Here.
Or the rest is never clear,
This too is not as it appears.
Now if we just get back,
And once again the pastels stack.
Do not stand ready to attack,
Now is the time we call for slack.
Here we stand there is no Time,
There is no Reason, there is no Rhyme.
They rhythm’s beat is sublime,
You can now turn on a dime.
Dreams with others we all share,
We float on clouds while we’re there.
We never seem to have a care,
But not much more do we need to bear.
At another bout of Dark we stand,
This is beyond the No Mans land.
Now is the time we understand,
What is the Force in command.
Here we see a once new plain,
Ready for you to master the Game.
I pray for your sins, I pray for your pain,
But after this, you wont be the same.
1-18-98