If I spoke of love so true,
And dimmed the lights for me and you,
If I wrote words to cheer your heart,
And I swore we would never part…
If I continued though you begged me to stop,
And I held you while in the tide we’re caught,
If I kissed away your tears,
And swore to stand here through the years…
If I spoke my heart to yours,
And my desires more than you endure,
If I whispered softly in your ear,
And my words seemed muddled and unclear…
If I glassed your eyes over…
If I made your heart skip a beat…
If I made your breath stop for just a second…
And you thought you would never be the same.
Would you do the same for me?
If you spoke words of love so true,
Dimmed the lights for me and you.
If you wrote words to cheer my heart,
Swear to me we would never part.
If you continued though I begged for you to stop,
And held me while in the tide I’m caught.
If you kissed away my tears,
Stood beside me for all the years.
If you spoke your heart to mine,
Desired me till I was blind.
If you whispered softly in my ear,
Until your words became unclear.
Would my heart skip a beat?
Would I too become weak?
9-24-01
Category Archives: Poems
Why Must?
I sat in the rain and watched it play,
Down my solemn window pane.
And through the rhythm, i reached for your hand,
But you took solitude, away have you ran.
I did but just once wish to feel some compassion,
To stand at your side, not alone.
And you turned me away for the fields of passion,
So to my silence condone…
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
I wanted to hold you, to feel you anew,
I wanted to cuddle, til the morning dew.
But to be so close, is not a must,
Must everything be torn from us?
Should i cry before i wake,
Or try to make another date?
Is all you see, my skin surround,
Do you even care if i’m not around?
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
I long for the warmth of an embrace,
I want of life more than i can taste.
But you push me aside with waves of want,
My emotions died, to countless to flaunt.
And though i may live another day,
And though my life may seem to stay,
And though my heart sinks into the abyss,
And i know not how much more i can take of this.
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
12-1-2001
Where I Am
The thunder roar, the lightning crash,
How much longer will the candle last?
I glance outside my window pane,
At the grey sheeted rain.
It is so cold during these damp days,
The wood so wet that it wont blaze.
I stay here shut up in this room,
For in the Darkness no Flowers bloom.
1-23-98
Where Are You Now
There was a place in my heart
Where you made your start
Deep inside it’s seams
Lovers in our dreams
There’s a hole in my soul
I could never let you go
Never could forget
The tears that I wept
Where are you now, Your love’s so far away
Where are you now, Why couldn’t you just stay
Don’t you realize, There is no one but you
Don’t you realize, My love was always true
There’s something missin in my life
Come back and make it right
I don’t understand
What’s in anothers hand?
You’re lost within my dreams
I’m lost without you it seems
Why can’t I be like them
Cast you off on a whim
Where are you now, Your love’s so far away
Where are you now, Why couldn’t you just stay
Don’t you realize, There is no one but you
Don’t you realize, My love was always true
1996
War
I was standing on firm ground before it did shake,
I was watching your moves until it was too late.
A counter attack, a swipe clean to my heart,
Did you ever imagine the War you would start.
A trickle of blood to relieve my pain,
There’s no antidote for this deadly bane.
You say there’s no difference between love and hate,
Toss fire on my life, then turn… Checkmate.
Now I pray for death, without a sound,
I’m no longer standing on sacred ground.
I’m battle-worn, I just want to kill,
For the War once started, I will still.
Then in rumbled debris, I will start a new,
Til I see your shadow in the morning dew.
And stand on the ground, until it does shake,
Watching your moves, until it’s too late.
2-4-97
I Want You
I want your body I want your soul,
Over you I want all control.
I must have you.
I want to kiss and hold you tight,
I want and need you every night.
I will have you.
I lust your body I lust your style,
You make my fantasies worth the while.
I must have you.
I need you now you make it right,
You wont resist me even with all your might.
I will have you.
I want your body I want your time,
I must own you you must be mine.
I must have you.
And if you leave me in the night,
I’ll search and find you it’ll be alright.
I will have you.
You will be chosen you are the one,
I’ll play your games you are so fun.
I must have you.
And if you find another place,
I’ll bring you back you are my case.
I will have you.
And if you find someone to take my place,
I’ll get you back I know your face.
I must have you.
You are mine,
All of the time.
Through thick and thin,
I hold you from within.
1989
Wait & See
All alone I call your name, only to hear no answer,
Could call you on the telephone, but it doesn’t matter.
We weren’t meant to be together,that’s the way it is,
And it doesn’t really matter, a kiss is just a kiss.
Though I loved you dearly, i wasn’t always true.
I never really meant to do it, I’m sorry i hurt you.
You were always there when i needed you, a friend or a lover,
I could be what you were for me, I want you not another.
It’s too bad, the cold hard fact, that we weren’t meant to be,
Maybe someday it’ll change, and you’ll come running back to me.
But now i sit and wallow in sorrow, self pity, and guilt.
It was you, my darling one, who broke the armor i built.
I look up to you and most likely always will.
And if you find another girl, I will love you still.
Someday all of this will change, I know our love was meant to be.
And we will be together as one, just you wait and see.
3/9/89
Toss Another Log On The Fire
I’m breathtaking to behold
(Or so I am told)
Even by the strange man
(With the gun in his hand)
As he laid me down
On the cold harsh ground
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m a waste of space
I bring down my race
Nothing good could ever come
From the beating of my drum
I’m just another liar
That will burns in Hells fire
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m a cold hearted bitch
A devilish witch
I have no right to speak
My future is bleak
So hit me again
It is your whim
Toss another log on the fire.
I’m too wicked to give
My son a place to live
Take him away
For Safetys play
And I have no right
For which I can fight
Toss another log on the fire.
They wonder why I must
Live life in mistrust
This fire burns bright
All through the night
My one source of Heat
Would make others weak
Toss another log on the fire.
11-6-96
Together
Though we sit so close together,
I just can not feel you.
Is this what’s called “Love Forever”,
Or is this something new?
Sometimes it seems we are so far apart,
But sometimes the opposite,
Why do I feel we are falling apart.
When together we sit?
1989
Tears of Pain
Flowers of love, tears of pain,
Life flashes again and again,
Pain and torture, lust and sin,
Death and destruction from within.
Who am I and where am I going?
Raindrops falling, kisses blowing,
Why all of the love going in the world,
And into a world of darkness I’m hurled.
I remember all the soft caresses,
Moonlit nights and pastel dresses.
Love’s warm and kiss and heartaches cold bite,
Crying myself to sleep at night.
Where are the flowers, do they still bloom?
Where is the love in this world of doom?
Talismans of hearts, candy of love,
Why did I lose the one sent from above?
The love so perfect, the love so real,
My heart was robbed, there was nothing to steal.
Robbed and shattered onto the floor,
In thousands of pieces maybe more.
Flowers of love, tears of pain,
It will never happen to me again.